She’s Grown
November 28th, 2010 | 
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I filed a leave of absence last Thursday. I took my eldest daughter, Candid, to two universities that we want her to get admitted to. I know she’s been trying to procrastinate it for as long as she wanted, but it came to the point that she could delay it no longer. She has to face college. So, we filed an application for the entrance exam.
I raised my daughter to be a strong-willed, self-empowered young woman. And she seems to be growing to be that young woman I have envisioned her to be several years back.
But last Thursday, she seemed to be ‘scared.’ Or maybe ‘bewildered’ was more like it. Always the protective mother, I wanted to tell her everything is going to be ok. But I knew it’s time to let go.
College IS HER FIGHT. This is something that she has to do by herself. I could only help, I could only watch, I could only cheer her on, but I could never DO it for her.
Then I felt scared myself. Is she ready? Did I prepare her for this? Did I prepare myself for this? Can the moral values I instilled keep her from doing things that could ruin her chances of a better life? Have I set examples good enough to keep her on the right path to her goals?
Maybe I’m not scared for her. Maybe I’m scared for MYSELF, that whatever she does will be a reflection of what I did.
I know I could only HOPE. Hope that she is that person capable of committing mistakes but capable also of making them right.
I know I need to have FAITH, faith in her that she can discriminate between acceptable and unacceptable, and faith in GOD that He would take care of her.
Finally, I know I could only LOVE her for what she is and what she is not. After all, she is an IMPERFECT DAUGHTER raised by an IMPERFECT MOM..
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Commit your daughter to God and you will have peace of mind. You have done what could be done to your daughter, leave it all up to God. I know she will not disappoint you but do not set too high a standard that she could not possibly attain. That might discouraged her unnecessarily. Thanks for the post. God bless you all always.
I guess it's a problem of every mother. You've done your part, Kim. Agree with Mel, let God protects Candid…
God Bless to your daughter
She can make it, as the Bible says, Train up a child in a way which he will go, and when he is old he will not depart from it. The training you've given her help her in this new journey.
she is a beauty te….good luck on her college life….:)
I guess it's normal for a parent to feel that way–let her grow with your guidance and love.
Goodluck to your daughter's college life.She can do it,Mommy Kim^_^
lovely daughter you have. with your guidance and prayer, i think she will be a good daugther. i get jealous when a mother is there to guide their kids. my mother died when i was 9.
you have a pretty daughter kim.
Im sure she'll make it through college through your guidance, love and care =)
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i love this post so much because i've been through this this. sending my daughter away to boarding school at UP was scarier than i thought, but now that she's in 3rd yr and can take care of her own, my only wish is, could she be home more often…
i remember, i was the stage mom back then, filling all the application forms and choosing the programs for her, hehe
goodluck kim, mother knows best.